the weekend…

Where to begin.
I tend to believe there are reasons for everything.
Apparently, I didn’t attend Art Star because I needed to have a glorious spat with my husband in the morning, right before taking off for market. Okay, it was more like…a fight. Like, we said hurtful things to each other in awful voices. And then stormed off in separate directions with our little boy all freaked out and confused. AWFUL. And about something totally unimportant (so it seems to me now).
We just don’t do things like that. Ever.
I know we’re abnormal, never having arguments or disagreements about anything, but it felt like the most terrible thing.
I set up for what was a bummer of a market day (forecasts for penny-sized hail and cloud-to-ground lightning kept people away, although it ended up not even starting to rain until the very end), and I waited anxiously for C and the Little Guy to show up.
When they did, we just held each other and I cried a bunch and suddenly we all felt amazing. It was very weird.
We are both bottlers.
I guess we’ve been fermenting and just needed to pop the cork and release some tension.
Our life has been so stressful this past year.
I also think it was good for the Little Guy to observe some conflict/resolution. It’s so rare in this house.
We’re all still riding that, feeling great, like a weight has been lifted.
So, I missed out on making some money/connections/whatever this weekend, but it seems obvious now that staying home was…somehow necessary.
I need to stop holding onto every little negative feeling and keeping it locked up inside me. It’s like poison.
I wish C could farm full-time. I wish we didn’t need the job that makes him feel like all the most interesting, creative parts of himself are dying, that makes him so tired he can’t do the work he really wants to do.
Baby steps.
Lettuces and mustard greens:

We’ll make it through the other side of this, I know.

At least I made some pretty things:

I managed an update, although not as large as I’d planned…some yarns and a few scarves. I have several things that need some attention from my camera…new cards and some other little goodies. Next time.

I have completed a pdf version of the hat pattern I posted about a while back…I have absolutely no idea how to get it up on Ravelry or even onto my website. It’s free, so if anyone wants me to send it via email, let me know. I’ll play around and see if I can figure out how to make it more accessible.

C is home today, so we’re going to complete our planting…most importantly, the bean seeds around the Little Guy’s Bean Teepee:

Can I please be three now, and play in my sandbox in the cool shade of vining bean plants? Lucky duck.

Ta for now, and happy Monday y’all.


things and stuff…

*Kiddo is sick, so update is late. Later today, though, I’ll get a few yarns and scarves up in the shoppe.

*Not goin’ to Art Star, after all. There was a miscommunication somewheres and my product was not reviewed on our application. It was suggested they could let it slide, but I’m not comfortable with that and I don’t think most of the other folks there would be, either. So, go check it out if you’re in the Philly area and visit In Hope while you’re there. I’m sorry I’m missing the event, but If you’re a Bratt local, I will instead be at the regular Saturday Farmer’s Market, from 9am – 2pm.

*It’s HOT today. I love it. On the menu is building the raised beds for my kitchen garden and getting some seeds in before tonight’s rain. *edit: rain, which did NOT happen. Boo.

*I played with felt this weekend:

*I also played with “weeds.” Now that the house is on the market again, I have to care about non-edibles. Don’t get me wrong, I adore flowers and bees and butterflies and all that good stuff…I just don’t care about tending it. I’d rather it get all wild and jungle-y, but apparently that doesn’t sell a house. So, out with the bee balm and all the “too much.” I’m going to try again to dig up hollyhocks without breaking the taproot, and hope for no more thorns in my fingers (there are rose vines everywhere).

*Here’s the yarn I was making while Little Guy colored the walls the other day:

It’s much richer in color than the photograph suggests. I have issues with photographing browns and blacks, lately. I promise it’s a very yummy chocolate brown, alternately wrapped and corespun. I was going to keep it for myself, but brought it to market and it walked away with someone…

*Lemongrass is my new best friend.

*I’ve decided to start tagging my entries. I can’t ever find anything I want to reference.